The First Last Time

Out here
a bit beyond where you are now
is a new day.
A new beginning made just for you.
Out here
where there are no stars,
you’re almost at an end
even if you won’t admit to it
today.
If you keep going
just a bit beyond where you are now
you’ll come to understand
there really is no end.
Nothing for you
to be disappointed by.
You’ll have to go through this part
first.
Your intermission between acts.
Until then it’ll continue to hurt.
And cause it hurts
you might even make it a long one.
Your Long Intermission Between Acts,
Wider than your heart has a space for now.
When it’s all over though,
this Great Renovation will carve out new Space in You.
You’ll have more room at Home than you ever imagined.
A Space to Hold for ever more.
Until the next time
when you get to where you are now,
again.
And then,
well,
at least
you’ll have been through this before,
so
you’ll have some idea
about what it’s going to be like.
Even if when you get there,
it still feels like now,
Like it’s the first time it’s ever happened,
Like you’re the first person it’s ever happened for.
And even then,
it’ll be like the last time,
starting over again
at the last first time.